Eccentric Thoughts

back to blogging...afta a YEAR!!

Assalamu alaikum everybody...

I don't knw why, after sooo long, i suddenly felt like blogging.... hmmm... in between, lots of things have happened... and what i just got to realize is that 'interest for blogging is inversely proportional to the distance with EXAM!!'.. cos i m here blogging, when my exams r just few days to go.. ..thats what always happened in my past experience of blogging..

but i already got the news that its gonna start on 26th, instead of 23rd, due to the 'hartal' ...so.. here i am, blogging.

hmm thinks that changed in the meantime- were there are looots of events to write abt, bt i m just gonna rite abt a few points here...

26th march, Independence day.. and the day when i become aunty dear for the 5th time!!Alhamdulillah..

14th april.. belated shuvo noboborsho to all of u.....the thought of noboborsho came to me in that sense that it has taken away another big year from our lives, and we don't know how much of it remains... its a day to recall for our past and prepare for our uncertain future, so that we can reach our destination, no matter what it is..

19th april, and same thought surrounding me, as i say goodbye to my beautiful, dear teens and start my journey on the path that i always feared-getting 'buri' or 'old'..lolzz....but its unavoidable, so what to do, bt accept the fate...
the greatest surprise for me was Mrs. UK, i mean doey dear's msg- i thought her cell's 'msg' option doesn't work-and, as she never replied to any of my messages in many days.. and i didnt for sure expect too... cos hehe... hahah... Mr. UK is with her now.. lolzz..and it was a great surprise that she remmbred something else than him!!! thankzzz doey dear.. n she expects me to follow HER footsteps.. hey, what did u think, huh?-'tui lej katbi bole ki shobai lej katbe naki??' haha..

this year it was a v diff day for me, with a Siratunnabi (SAW) program at uni, (i m too clever, not relating this news to any of my uni friends, so they didnt get a chance to ask me for a treat, hahahaha) and a speech to deliver there on behalf of the students...(:-s)..on 'what we students should do while our Prophet(SAW) is being attacked'...(though i wonder how much of what i said is being practised by ME)... and got a great gift- the third prize of the essay competition held for the same occasion at uni. Alhamdulillah it was a great day for me, but i got so tired in the aftrnoon, had to fall asleep... i m tryin hard to get rid of this 'aftrnoon nap' habit, but in vain!
the whole day i was feeling sad, fr the beautiful teens that i left behind, (oh gosh, i cant think of being treated as an adult!!) and thinking abt the mountains of sins i have gathered.... May Allah help me lead a much better future life, whatever of it remains.. Ameen!!

one memorable msg i want to share with u ppl was the one from a sis- she wrote 'jokhon prothom tumi eshechile bhobe, kendechile tumi ar heshechilo shobe, emon jibon hobe korite gothon, morone hashibe tumi, kandibe bhubon'-translated, "when first u came to this world, its you who cried while everyone smiled. you hav to live such a life, that while u die, u will smile, leaving the whole world in tears"
-i remmbr these verses caught my attention when i was a young kid, on a framed wallmat hanging from the walls in the house of an old relative.. but i wonder how much of it can i activate.. May Allah help me, and Jazaaha Allahu Khair for that sis, who reminded me again, what type of life i should live.

the great thing was my closest relative who is farthest (is that the correct word??well, i meant 'the one most far away', u fix it, no time to look up the dictionary) from me, my bro in DK, being the first one to wish...(hey, its a wonder he remembered!!..with a very rare volatile memory, he turned up sending me a card this year, on my bro's bday which is also in april, lolzz, bt this time being very careful to remmbr the date) and my youngest bro in MY, being the last one, (he added, he ws late cos he ws on a trip to thailand n wasnt in netwrk area, *bt he managed it before 12 am*, and with the news that he got me a gft from thailand :D-yippee) ..... all the other friends n relatives had to be 'sandwiched' by my bros.. hehe...
btw, i decided, when u get gifts, its okay all the way, i can celebrate every month..... lolzzz ... (kiddin)..bt from siblings, u need not any occasion to be gifted, do u??- specially when u r the youngest one??- "as sis sabrina said , 'spoilt brat'..lolzz"

out of all these 'trying to cheer up' , i dunno y,for sum special reason, i have been suffering seriously and badly from the disease i , the happy-go-lucky-gal, never suffered from before-'depression'.....
whenever i m alone,i feel like i m under some great pressure, with lots of things to do, and a very bad time goin on with me...
i still m looking for the reason, cs without diagnosis, how can i get some treatment?
didnt come up wth any proper answer yet (mayb for the hard workload i had faced this week, with all those -speech, essay, presentation, assignment and exams next week), but for now, my treatment is listening to Quran, whenever and wherever and s much s i can. InshaAllah this will help me alot.

And after all, i must admit, now that i have shared my thoughts, i m feeling much relieved!! maybe THAT ws the reason-having no1 to share it all with!!.. after all, havin sum1 to talk yourself out, is a basic need of life (accrdin to me)... i was in need of such sum1 for long, n feeling sad all the time, i was dumb not to remmbr abt blogging then..
although i dont know whether this will get any readers... lolzzz. i hav been out of blogging world for long, so i dont expect many readers.. but yet, the feeling that i have wrote it out, is getting me some peace.

And to end it all, LOTS of prayers required for me, for my future life (whatever of it awaits) and my mental peace and physical well-being....Jazaak Allah for praying for me. And May Allah remove all our sorrows and replace it with happiness, and help us all be among His closest ones... Ameeen!!
Ma'assalam.
(its been already a year since i last blogged, did u guys notice?? last time i blogged it was 1412 Bangla year, and now it is 1413... n this time i m 1 yr elder than what i was last time..:((....)

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posted by eccentric_human @ 5:54 PM